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August 4 2018

Hello, so much has been going on since I last wrote, I don't know where to begin. After July 8, I was given the final version of the book to finish editing. The going is slow because I am fixing the edits myself so that it will be finished completely. When they get it this time, it will take a week and then be on the 'shelves' on Amazon in a week. I just wish I knew how to advertise it well!!

Then, it was time to start working on getting my neck and shoulder and migraine gone. I went to physical therapy and started going to the Axial Orthogonal Chiropractic Clinic in Gibson City, IL. I am happy to report that now both the migraine, neck pain, and shoulder pain are gone. It is amazing what listening to your body can do for you. I am now pain free again which is wonderful considering I have RSD/CRPS, Fibromyalgia, and Complex Chronic Migraines. I love my nutritional products and how my body is able to absorb them, allowing me to exercise as I need to and allowing me to think.

Next, it was time to get the house ready for visitors. Our daughter, Aimee, and our Grandson, Robbie, came for a visit for 2 weeks. They just left July 31. Our best friend got married on July 28. It was an outdoor wedding and the weather was absolutely perfect, very unusual.

My brother and his wife, more like a sister, also came. It was wonderful to have everyone here and it broke the rest of the depression to have all the love and laughter in the house. I loved it. Robbie cried and cried when Uncle Steve left. Kids just love him. It makes me wonder why we fought so much as kids. I would really like to know that answer!

Robbie wanted a train birthday party and so, since we can't be there for him on his birthday, we had a surprise birthday party for him two Saturdays ago right after the radio show. We went to the Monticello Railroad Museaum where they restore old railroad cars and engines and he was able to ride the old train and sit in the steam engine. The joy in his eyes and the happiness on his face I will never forget. My daughter's joy was just as wonderful. It was a surprise to her too. 

We came home and had a cook out and then we suggested he open his presents. What?!? He had presents?!? Oh joy! He ended up with Thomas the Train tracks that can build on one another and 3 engines. He played with them the whole time he was here.

He got to spend 2 nights at Nana and Poppop's house without Mommy because she went to Auntie's house to help with wedding stuff and was just perfect. He is such a sweetie and joy to have around. He listens and minds and is so wonderful. We don't get to see him very often, but we Facetime as often as we can. I just couldn't hug him enough. It had been 2 years since we had seen him in real time.

Well, I did the radio show today. It was a little somber as I discussed attitude and depression and suicide, all things that need to be discussed but are hard to do anyway. I have now done over a year's worth of shows. I hope I am helping people. If I am helping at least one person, it is enough.

Well, those are my thoughts today.

Deb

July 8, 2018

For the last few days, I have been working hard getting people information about the Work From Home Opportunity. There has been a lot of interest. I'm excited that I can offer this to my Fibromyalgia people because it is truly something that can work for them if they just take this first step. Plus, if they take the chance  on letting the nutrition benefits of Limu Moui Original have a chance for their body's to absorb the nutrients, I would love to see what they discover. It has been fun.

My stress levels remain high, but my migraine is much better. There are times when it tries to reappear, but God has given me the tools I need to take care of that. I am so blessed that with everything that is wrong with me, I have so little pain and what I do have, I know what I need to do to relieve it almost immediately. God has been so good to me.

We actually got some pictures hung up in the Farmhouse today. The first actual decoration since we started the rehabilitation of this 161 year old Farmhouse. I love this old place. Last night, I know this is going to sound strange, but I swear there were a lot of people here when I went to bed. There was talking and singing and some fiddle playing. Of course, where our bedroom is, was completely outside underneath big trees at that time when they were alive and the weather was beautiful. Sometimes when the ancestors show up, they always play the fiddle and there is always loud talking and singing. Last night they were really loud. It was hard to sleep until after 4am when they finally quieted down.

Thankfully, I've never seen them. I think that would freak me out completely. I love hearing them though and I love smelling the cooking they do, if only I could actually eat the food I smell!

This house is so much fun!

June 9 2018

Today was the day I do the Radio Show, Lives Changed. I never get any feedback from anyone, so I never know how people like or don't like the show. I just keep plugging away, talking to the tree outside the window and it keeps bobbing its branches up and down like it is listening and approving of what I am saying. In the summer it looks so happy with it leaves out and so pretty. In the winter, it looks so sad and lonely. We had such a warm winter, it started to bud out and I was afraid we would lose it, but here it is in all its majestic beauty.

I love being out in the country with the big old trees and my big windows that let the sun through so that I get light. In our other house, we had big windows and I felt like I lived in the woods with Snow White. We had all the animals passing through and it was beautiful, but unless I went outside there was no sunlight because sun could not reach inside the house. It was a beautiful house and I loved every inch of it and the woods, but it was a depressing house too because there was no sun. When you have chronic depression you need the sun.

After the program today, I wrote some for next week's show. I was given inspiration over night for an article for next week. It happens like that a lot. I will go to bed and pray for inspiration and before I am done with prayers, another article will appear in my head. It is funny how that works, not funny haha but strange. I love it though and it certainly helpful.

Then, usually I have to take a nap on Saturday's because I have to get up so early for the radio show. I really love doing the radio show and hope it is helping people. I would hate to think that no one was getting anything out of it.

Then, late yesterday I got a call from Book Writing, Inc to approve the final copy of the book, but when I looked at it again it was the unfixed copy of the audible version of the book. The same version they sent me before, so I sent it to them again and asked why they keep sending me a version of the audible copy that has not been fixed? So frustrating! So, another week passes. Oh well, maybe next week it will finally be done. I hope so! I have finished editing everything, the book cover is finished and I love it! Well, 'til next time Diary.

My Diary

Today is my first post in My Diary. Today I discovered that people who should have known better, who have known me all of their lives, people who I have saved from disaster over and over again, people who know me inside and out, believed an impossible lie about me. Just a ridiculous lie that no one who knew me would believe of me. Yet they did. Every single one of them. The thing is, it is family and the other thing is, that it is family that was spreading the lie. Then, because of an awful personal family situation that no one wants to understand, listen to or get in the middle of, one member of the family decided to make a phone call and make things worse, then said he didn't want any part of it. It is amazing to me how family who is supposed to be there to support you, can stab you in the back, especially when times are bad. Now 5 months later, when I try to find out why everyone is quiet and treating me like I don't exist, I discover what happened. Not one person faced me with it at the time, but believed these lies about me and all turned their backs on me when I needed them the most. Well, it is one thing to have your so-called friends treat you this way. Family is something else. 

That is why when you have a chronic illness, support groups are so important. We can't always count on our blood relatives to be the families we trust them to be. The support groups we choose however, we can choose carefully can become the loving family we need who will give us the love and support we so badly crave.